It’s Going to be a Great Week!

It’s Going to be a Great Week!

I finally have my first schedule for the vet clinic! I’m super excited to be starting on Monday!! Please expect a post about how wonderful it is and how clumsy I feel at first. πŸ™‚ The only downside is that I would close (midnight) at my old job, and would stay up until six AM most days give or take. Monday I have to be at the vet clinic by seven AM! So this is going to be a shock to my body. It’ll be fine though, I’ll be eager to get there and see what all I’ll be doing, so I’m not too worried about it. That’s the first exciting thing-I’ll be working Monday through Thursday this week, at a job I’m pretty sure I’m going to love!

Secondly, my family is coming down to see me on Friday! I haven’t seen them for six months now, so I’m pretty psyched. It’ll be my mom, stepdad, brother, three little sisters, and my niece! I’ll take some pictures so you can meet the lot of us. πŸ™‚ I’m really excited for that too, and it worked out perfectly that I’ll be off all weekend. I didn’t ask for it off since I just started this job, but it worked out great anyway!

Thirdly, I’ve had a ring that’s had a temporary sizer in it for a few weeks now (you can check that post out here!), and I was finally able to get it in to get properly sized. That’ll be done sometime this week and will fit perfectly and not be sliding all over my finger anymore! Definitely going to be a great week I’m thinking. I hope yours is as great, if not even better! What are you looking forward to this week?

I Present to You..

I Present to You..

..Band Photo Saturday! Well, not quite yet seeing as it is only Thursday, but you can be looking forward to a photo on Saturday!! For those of you who don’t know, I’m in a band with Lucas (my boyfriend) and Randy (his dad). We’re Lunar Tides, and you can find our band page on YouTube right here! Lucas plays drums and sings/does backup vocals, Randy plays the guitar and sings/does backup vocals, and I play the bass guitar! (Only shower, car, and to annoy Lucas singing for me!) We started our band a little over a year ago, and Lucas and I have only been playing our instruments for that amount of time. It’s definitely still a learning experience, but we’re having a ton of fun doing it and that’s the main thing! We’re learning more about our sound system and how to get it working properly, so sorry if some of the older videos are a little off. (We’re working on updating those!) Randy drives truck and is only home on the weekends, so we have a very limited window of time to play and write new material. We’re hoping in August to set up so we can live stream on Twitch! Don’t worry–I’ll be spamming you all with that information when the time comes. πŸ™‚

Back to my main point, every Saturday I’m going to be sharing with you a band photo! Depending on time/schedule/et cetera, I’ll let you know how our practice went, what we worked on, or why we didn’t have practice if that’s the case. Lunar Tides is another part of my life other than writing and my thoughts, so I thought it might be something interesting to share with all of you also! I hope you enjoy. πŸ™‚

Violin of the Sea ~ NWW Photo Prompt

Violin of the Sea ~ NWW Photo Prompt

I’m participating in New West Writers Photo Prompt! You can check out their page and the post I’m responding to right here. I hope you enjoy this fictional very short story, and let me know what you think!

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What do I think of when I think of my sister? Is it the way her hair glistened in the sun, the beautiful smile that was always on her face, or the smell of her perfume that gently stayed behind long after she’d left a room? No, it is none of these things, although they all rush to my mind when her name comes up or my mind wanders to her. Music is the thing I think of first when I think of my sister. It’s been four years since she died, four long years of loving and hating music. The violin was her favorite, her ‘baby’ if you will. She played it beautifully, you could lose yourself for hours listening and watching her play that violin. My mother offered it to me, but I couldn’t take it. It was too painful a memory to have so physically close when I swear I still hear her laughing in the other room already. I’ve been going to therapy, and slowly I’m learning better ways to cope and deal with the pain of losing someone so wonderful. Someone with the whole world ahead of her, except not the world I wanted her to have. It may come as a surprise, but through this therapy, I’ve come to the realization I need to get a seahorse. I have pictures of her, and a box of clothes and other small possessions in a box in my closet. I know it’s been four years, but it’s still too soon for her things to be out in the open for me. Like I said, music-that violin-is the memory of her I hold closest. I used to stare at that f hole when she would play. I would become mesmerized staring at it, sitting there with her in a moment that would make time stand still. Just the two of us, and the beautiful notes singing out of that violin, with that beautiful f hole on its side. Although not quite the same, every time I see a seahorse, I think of the f hole on her violin, I think of my sister, and I smile at this beautiful marine animal. I may not be ready to move her things out in the open, but I would like to take care of this tiny creature, and in turn have him looking out for me, and reminding me that music is beautiful, music is love, and is everything my sister was, and everything she would want me to hold onto and believe in.

It All Started With A Doughnut

It All Started With A Doughnut

I get paid on Tuesday’s (as of now, not sure what it’ll be when I start my job at the vet clinic!) so at midnight, although I still say it’s Monday, Lucas and I go to Wal*Mart and shop. It’s a fun thing to look forward to and I always enjoy our little excursion together. On this particular trip, I had just gotten off work and was rather hungry. I’d woken up late and didn’t get a chance to eat anything before going to work. This usually isn’t a matter of concern, but I’m a Type 1 Diabetic so by the time we got to Wal*Mart I was feeling a little shaky and like my blood sugar was low. We did our shopping and got some doughnuts- I LOVE doughnuts!- and I ate one on the way home. It was delicious, by the way. We get home, put everything away, and I heat up a sandwich and eat that along with some chips. Yes, I love food and like I said I hadn’t eaten anything-don’t judge! πŸ™‚ After this I eat a few Runts because we’re watching movies and what else are you supposed to do?? I bolused for eating, but alas, forgot I had eaten that doughnut. By the time I’m getting ready for bed my blood sugar is 485. Everyone who is a diabetic is different in what the margin should be for their blood sugar, but mine is 80-130. So as you can see without even knowing much more, 485 is WAY higher than it should be. I bolused for that, damning the doughnut in my mind because I knew I had forgotten it earlier when bolusing for everything else. I went to bed, figuring it would all be better in the morning, and slept. It wasn’t meant to be. When I got up today my blood sugar was at 380-something and I felt like crap. I bolused for that, and an hour or more later it was down to 290. Good to be going down, but it planed out at about 270 which isn’t what I wanted. I’m feeling much better than I did earlier, but it’s still sitting at almost 300. I guess the moral of the story is to never forget that doughnut! Also, I’ve recently started doing better with checking my blood sugar and have a sensor (I’ll tell you all about that in a different post) so being able to tell my blood sugar is high is a drastic improvement. Before it’d be that high and I wouldn’t even notice which is really bad. So that’s a good thing in all the bad of feeling crappy all day. Next time you eat a doughnut, don’t forget to bolus, or if you have a working pancreas, give it a high-five for never forgetting you ate one! πŸ™‚

Daily Prompt! (The Correct One)

Daily Prompt! (The Correct One)

All right, so I had put in my previous post about Special Agent NelsonΒ that it went along with my Blogging 101 course and using a daily prompt. Apparently I rushed this, because it wasn’t quite what the prompt was. Shafali and I figured this out together and are deciding to do the Actual prompt now. Please go check out her blog also – it’s awesome! πŸ™‚

Now to do the actual prompt: “At what age did you realize you were not immortal?”

First off, my memory can be absolutely terrible! Because of this, I have no memory of when I realized I was not immortal, nor at what possible age that could have been. I grew up with cats and dogs and horses out in the country, and sadly as what happens to animals, I had to deal with some of them passing away. I think this helped me realize that we are all going to die eventually, but I don’t remember it ever being an “a-ha!” moment for me. I’ve had, unfortunately, a few suicide attempts, and having failed at those (gotta use the humor-I want to make “I failed” shirts for mental health awareness-if no one else has already) it did give me a different outlook on life and death. My dream job is actually being a mortician, and I think death has always fascinated me in ways. It is the final frontier, and we know we don’t come back from it in our own bodies or else Harry Houdini would have told us all about it! I don’t believe in God or an afterlife, however, I do know matter cannot be created nor destroyed, so the particles within me must get dissolved back into the earth somehow. As for who we are and our consciousness, I’m guessing it’s just like before we were born-nothing. Most days I have no fears of death, nor do I think about it really. Other days I can’t go to sleep for fear of not waking up. And other days I’d like to greet death like an old friend. Whichever the case may be, life is precious and the older I get the more and more I realize and appreciate this, and unfortunately see how much time I’m wasting in the short amount I have here with all of you. I guess perhaps it was never an “a-ha!” moment for me, because sometimes I’m realizing all over again I’m not immortal.

Second note–the way this was worded; “youΒ were not immortal” leads me to believe we nowΒ areΒ immortal..please show me this black magic. πŸ™‚

Field of Dreams: A Movie Review

Field of Dreams: A Movie Review

This movie became an oxymoron for me-an instant classic- due to the fact I’d never seen it until last night. What a great film, though! I’m not sure how I’d passed on seeing this for so long, but I’m glad I ended up finally watching it. It’s filmed in Iowa, which is neat to me since I grew up in Iowa. I’ve since left, and (sorry Iowa!) am enjoying where I’m at more. Iowa will always hold a special place for me though, so this film was enjoyable in that aspect. The story was intriguing, especially since you knew the father in the movie wasn’t actually crazy; his wife and daughter could see the ball players as well. It’s touching to think that past wrongs can be righted, and that perhaps we’d be able to interact with our favorite ‘celebrities’ or family after they’re gone. I think the setting makes it more serene with all these fields of corn around this enchanting baseball diamond. The film also gives the sense that everything has a purpose, which I happen to really enjoy. Even though the man they were supposed to meet has passed away, they meet his younger self, he gets his lifelong dream, and the man’s daughter is saved in the process. It’s really an all-around beautiful story. I think the movie was giving us advice, that it’s never too late to follow your dreams, and it’s never too late to right a wrong or say what you mean. I once had my dad tell me he used to want to say something to his dad, would think the time had passed, and would never end up saying it. He told me that if I ever thought the time had passed, it hadn’t, and to say it regardless, even if it was awhile after and didn’t seem like it’d make sense. (I’m hoping you’re understanding that..it seems a little convoluted.) It was some of the best advice I’ve received, and I think this movie was trying to convey some of that too. I definitely recommend this film to anyone like me who hasn’t seen it yet, and if you have maybe revisit it! Have you seen this movie, and what did you think?

Are We Doomed?

Are We Doomed?

Not in any spectacular “destroy the human race/Earth” kind of way, just in a generalized sense of ‘doomed’. I have my bad days, I’m sure everyone does, where I hate the general public and want to stay home all day with my cats and Lucas. (and lots of food and Diet Coke.) Most of the time, however, I’m fine to be out in the world and wondering what kind of lives the people around me are leading. What do they do? What are their hopes and dreams? Are they happy? What really gets me is the amount of negativity on the internet. I haven’t found any yet here in the blogging world, which has been great! Hooray for us bloggers! It’s definitely out there though, and perhaps I’ve just been lucky enough to not come across it on here.

Lucas brought up a great point the other day while watching Twitch. It’s easy to be anyone sitting behind a computer with no accountability nor responsibility with your words, but why does it seem most of us use that to belittle and push hate on others? We can’t hide behind our computers and say nice things? Is it the ‘human condition’ to be mean-spirited and rude to those around us? I know everyone isn’t like that, but it seems a vast majority is, and I wonder why. The world is so giant and so little at the same time. We have our “social circles” and groups of friends/family we know and interact with, but what about the other billion people around us? I remember once I was at Bath and Body Works and asked a random lady smelling lotions near me what she thought of the one I was holding. It seemed like it took her by surprise, but she gave me her opinion with a little smile on her face. I’d never seen her before nor since, but what a fun little interaction to take with me. There needs to be more of that. More gentle, kind words typed into the internet universe, more asking strangers’ opinions, more giving complete strangers a compliment and smile. I’m not saying go run up and hug everyone you meet, but maybe try just once a month to say something nice to someone passing you by. You just might make their day, week, month, hell maybe even their year! Perhaps, we could change the negativity and start being a world that gets along, even if it’s just in our own small worlds. By the way, that shirt looks lovely on you. πŸ™‚

Show Your Fellow Bloggers Some Love!

Show Your Fellow Bloggers Some Love!

As you may know, or are about to know, I’m taking a Blogging 101 course, and it has been amazing so far! I’ve come in contact with a ton of awesome fellow bloggers which is always great. I’ve really enjoyed reading about why people have started blogging and what they wish to blog about. Today is for sharing a blog we found that we want everyone else to find! I found a really neat blog that you can check out right here. It was awesome to read that I wasn’t the only one who had trouble thinking of what to make their blog about, and finally I chose the obvious for me–everything–which is what seems to be the best fit for a lot of people. Plus I love “Stochastic”, the name of her blog. You can read the meaning right here. I love coming across new words I’ve never heard, but would like to incorporate into my daily life and writing. There are so many words just waiting for us to stumble across them!! I like checking out m-w online to see their word of the day. What’s your favorite word, and what’s a blog you really love? (Or just share yours!) πŸ™‚

Writing is Hard!

Writing is Hard!

I think writing is one of the simultaneously hardest and easiest things out there. It’s amazing how sometimes the words can flow like they’re never going to end, and other times you’re stuck on trying to remember your own name! I’ve been working on writing a book for a little over a year now. When I first started it I had just moved, wasn’t working, and we had no internet. The only TV channels were the local ones, so they weren’t much of a distraction. For those reasons, I was able to write quite a bit of it. (Well quite a bit for as much as I have right now) Now with working and let’s face it, just being lazy, I haven’t gotten much of anything written on it. I’m really in love with my whole idea, (narcissist much?) and am excited to see the end project. I’m just not quite sure how to get motivated and not distracted while writing it. I’m also a little stuck on the part I’m at. I’m not artistic at all, and I’m describing a house and “treasures” hidden within it. I can visualize a little bit of how I want it to look, but it’s hard to really see the floor plan of the house, which is what I’m wanting but not necessarily needing. Let’s just say the house is really important to the story. I don’t want to give too much away-you’ll just have to wait for when I’m done to read it! πŸ™‚ haha. The title of it is Echoing Footsteps. Let me know what you think of the title, and any tips you may have for helping me stay on track!! I appreciate the feedback. πŸ™‚

Guess What!?

Guess What!?

I got a job at one of the vet clinics in my town! I am SO SUPER EXCITED! It’s starting off at the bottom, but I’m hoping to grow with it and perhaps make it my long-term career. When I was younger I wanted to be a vet, (although I think a lot of kids do at some point) but then strayed away from the idea with the amount of schooling involved and money and all that. It now seems as though I’ll possibly have that opportunity again! I also know this vet clinic is really great with the animals it sees and making sure they’re taken care of in the best way possible. My cat Nelson got really sick last year and I was really worried he wasn’t going to make it. When we took him to the vet after a few days of being very unlike himself, his temperature was off the charts and he had to stay overnight. Of course I was worried sick and crying, but when we went to get him the next day he was already looking livelier! It still took him a couple weeks to fully recover, but he’s been doing fantastically since then! Going through that whole experience left me with a really good feeling towards that particular vet clinic, and I’m really happy to be employed with them and a part of the team! I have to finish my two weeks at my current job, but then I’ll be starting! I’ll keep you all posted on how it goes! πŸ™‚