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Low blood sugar

Blood sugar was 60 so I made peanut butter tortillas with honey and fresh blackberries drizzled on top! And I say I can’t cook.

Blood sugars were low last night and apparently tonight too which sucks. But luckily I have Lucas to keep an eye on me and some protein and sweets!

The Tanner Saga (WARNING: Graphic pictures)

The Tanner Saga (WARNING: Graphic pictures)

 

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Tanner getting lasered; what a badass!

Our story begins on a typical Tuesday morning. The lady of the house, A.K.A. the boys’ momma, was getting ready for work when she noticed one of her many dear boys limping. Tanner was walking across the counter, as was customary for this ungodly hour in the morning, but his left front leg wouldn’t support his weight in the usual fashion. The momma decided to check it out, even though she assumed he must have jumped oddly on it, or maybe had a piece of litter stuck in his paw.

You see, Tanner wasn’t the lightest of cats, and it would not be surprising for him to have twisted his ankle jumping from the counter. (Something he did all the time.) The boys’ momma grabbed her phone to pull up the flashlight since the dad of the cabin was still asleep and she didn’t want to disturb him for a little ankle pain. She walked over to where Tanner was eating on the shelf, and lightly grabbed his paw to see what was going on with it. She couldn’t feel anything protruding from the leg nor paw, but as she turned it toward the light she could see there was a fairly deep gash on the backside.

Luckily for Tanner, his momma works at a vet clinic, and was able to bring him with her to work. It was decided he would need stitches, but they would have to do it the next day so they’d be able to sedate him. (There is no way he would have let them do it awake, and he had already eaten so they couldn’t do it that day.)

She didn’t know how he could have done it, since they lived in such a small place and she didn’t think there was anywhere he could have hurt himself like that, and in that spot. The dad of the cabin found the culprit, however. There was an unused aquarium in the utility room that Tanner must have jumped on a million times. Apparently this was the final time, seeing as the broken glass and light bulb from above it were scattered inside. He must have sliced his wrist either jumping in or out of the aquarium. His dad got rid of it as soon as he found out though, even before the momma got home!

The next day, Tanner went unhappily back to work with his momma. His wound seemed all right and like it was trying to heal up. When they put him out and were able to shave around it, however, they realized it was still incredibly deep. They cleaned it out and he went in to surgery. While the doctor was working on sewing him up, she told his momma the cut was one millimeter away from his artery. ONE MILLIMETER FROM HIS ARTERY!!!! You could see the thin blue line that was his artery!! His momma definitely freaked out about that one. Tanner for sure used up one of his lives that day; he missed nerves, tendons, his artery, and only had a cut that needed two layers of stitches.

Tanner was able to go home later that day, although he had to stay the night in the kennel because he was still ‘drunk’ from the anesthesia. The next day he was released from that prison, and had made a sore on his nose from trying to get out of the kennel. (Something else his momma felt horrible about.) He was still ‘drunk’, but ate and drank some water and seemed to be doing just fine.

He was still limping yet doing well, but then Saturday night rolled around. His momma was holding him and noticed what felt like a mat on his left side. She had his dad grab a light and look at it while she was holding him. He said it looked like some type of cut, and they decided he must have had another cut from the aquarium that they had missed. His momma would bring him to her work on Monday.

Monday rolled around, and she took Tanner in to the vet clinic to have him looked at yet again. The doctor took a slight look and thought it seemed like more of a bite than a cut, and had her technician begin shaving the fur around it. It definitely looked red and infected, and they decided to keep shaving until they completely found the edges of the infected area. When all was said and done, his whole side was pretty much shaved and red from the bite. It had to be a brown recluse, that was the only thing that made sense. Poor Tanner was having quite the week!!

He got some more medicine, and later the next week some pain killer meds to help him hopefully feel even a bit better.

Now, let’s cut to today. Tanner is doing extremely well, his bite is beginning to peel around the edges and has completely necrosed, and he isn’t limping much anymore although he still holds his paw up when he’s siting somewhere. This all seems good, but then a couple days ago the dad noticed a lump between his shoulder blades. His momma took him back in once again to see what the doc had to say.

Luckily, she thinks it’s just a shot knot and that it’ll go away on its own. They just need to keep an eye on it, and bring him back in if it gets any worse, or hard and bigger. (Hard and smaller is okay though!)

So there you have it, ‘The Tanner Saga’. They say things come in three’s, so let’s hope the shot knot is the third and it isn’t anything more serious!! Because let me tell you, Tanner’s momma needs him.


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Hey friends! 

Hey friends! 

It’s been quite a long time since I’ve written on here, anything about me or life or ramblings. I’m still here and kicking! 

2018 is off to a great start so far! My meds for my mental health have been doing great, my A1c is down (8.6 so still have a long way to go, but it’s better!), I have an appointment to get scheduled for a tubal ligation, dog grooming is going fantastic, Lunar Tides is going strong with new music (and studio!), I’m a volunteer crisis counselor, all the animals are doing well and healthy, I’m 2 years sober now!, and Lucas and I are still madly in love.

I’ve said it many times before, but I’m going to try to start writing on here more than once a year. 😉

I hope all you fabulous people are having a great year so far and are doing well in life! 

I’ll be talking to you again soon I hope! ❤ 

Happy Halloween/All Hallows Eve!

It’s been a long while, friends! How are all of you doing? Enjoying the weather? It’s 80° here today! I remember when there was snow on the ground when I went trick-or-treating as a kid.

I’m going to ramble for awhile; hope you don’t mind. I now am on 200mg of Lamictal, and 50mg of Zoloft, and let me tell you: IT IS AMAZING. I think (knock on wood) this is the magic amount and type of drugs for me! I was telling Lucas the other day it’s probably how ‘normal’ people feel all the time, but for me I feel like I’m on drugs because I’m so happy and actually myself! It’s wonderful. (Granted yes, I am on drugs, but I mean like non-prescription drugs. You get it.)

I’m still at the vet clinic; it’s just me and The Groomer now, so I’ve been doing prep work, all the bathing, and then helping to finish whatever dogs are left. So a few less dogs that I’m finishing, but I’m still really enjoying it, learning new things, and getting more hours which is great!

Lucas and I are doing very well as are all the animals! Lunar Tides is going great and we’ve had a few live shows in our area!! That’s been a lot of fun; we have another on the 19th of November. In two months it’ll be a year that I’ve been sober. I’m pretty proud of myself for that. I’m sure a million other things have happened since I’ve been gone, and I know tons has been going on in your lives too! I’d love to hear all about it. I can’t promise I’m back for sure now, but I felt like doing a bit of blogging today and we’ll see where it leads us.

 

Have a fantastic week you wonderful WordPress friends. ❤

 

 

 

 

 

Flying Solo

Flying Solo

I have been taking different medications for depression and anxiety for just about a year now. I keep trying to find the medicine that will work for me, and some seem to but then lose their vigor. Two weeks ago I was put on Lexapro 10 mg. I was previously on Zoloft 200 mg, but had been feeling very foggy and tired all the time. I also was having some anger spurts which were not very fun!!

However, the Lexapro was TERRIBLE for me. I was irritated at everything, and would snap on Lucas just for looking at me! So I decided to quit taking the Lexapro because even if it began to be helpful, the irritation was not worth it. Now I’m just me in my head, and we’ll see how that goes. I have a psychiatrist appointment in about a month, and we’ll see where I’m at then. But for now, I figured it might be a good idea to try to get back to me and see how I’m doing. I’ve been on different meds for so long now, that I’m not even sure what feelings are mine and which are drug-induced!

It will be nice to see how I am on my own, but at the same time I don’t want to lose all the progress I’ve made when things have been going well. I’m still going to therapy, and actually have an appointment in an hour. So we’ll see how things go.

Other than that, life has been moving at high speed. Still grooming dogs, had a death in the family and the funeral last weekend, am sick now which sucks, and haven’t been on here or writing like I should! But I’m hoping to get back into things. Lucas and I are doing great, as are the animals which is good. I don’t know what I’d do without Lucas, and am so thankful he puts up with my moods and is so understanding to not hate me when I’m mean to him!! :/ Mental illness sucks.

I hope everyone is doing well though, take care!!  ❤

 

New Site, New Me.?

New Site, New Me.?

Well it’s been awhile, again! I feel like I keep saying that with each post. I also keep meaning to get back into blogging like I used to be, but somehow that hasn’t quite happened yet! I’m still here though, just lurking in the shadows at the moment.

To give a little update, I’ve been the sole groomer for about  a month at the vet clinic. The Groomer broke her hand so I’ve been doing it all until she’s better. I really love it, and have been doing a good job!

I saw a psychiatrist and now am on 150mg of Zoloft. It seems to be helping I think. I also am still going to therapy every week which has been very helpful and great!

I’ve kind of taken a pause from writing, I would like to get back into it though. Damn depression or whatever it is that keeps us from doing what we love!!

We’re still working on our EP, only vocals are left so it should be done fairly soon! We also have new songs in the works which is really exciting.

Anyway, I was just sitting here and thought I would spruce up my WordPress in hopes it would get me back in the swing of things. I changed the theme, although I’m not sure if I’ll keep it or not yet. Plus I changed my tagline to ‘under construction’ since I’m changing my blog around a little, and my life in general I suppose!

I hope everyone is doing well, I miss you guys and haven’t forgotten about you! I’ve just been busy and whatnot, but still think of you guys and hope everything is going really well. 🙂 Have a great weekend!

How Are You?

How Are You?

Hello my dear WordPress friends!! Man has it been a LOOONG time. How is everyone doing? What’s new in your life? How is 2016 treating you? I’ll give you a little update on me, since what else would I be doing on my blog? (ha!)

Our outside cat Calypso had kittens!! They’re adorable, Little Miss Jr. is a calico like her mom, Dark Tides is black and super calm, Tanner is orange and adventurous though not as much so as Dark Tides, and Whitey is white with silver tips and very whiny! They’re almost three weeks old, and doing really well. We’ll have to find them homes since we don’t have room to keep them all, but we’re definitely enjoying them while we can!

Lunar Tides is doing well; we’re working on a few new songs and have been working on our first EP! We’ve been doing it ourselves so it’s taking awhile and is a lot of work for Lucas, but he’s been doing great at it and hopefully by the end of May it’ll be finished!

Speaking of Lucas, I proposed to him!! And he said yes! We aren’t going to have a conventional wedding, just a promise and ceremony for us, but I’ll get my name legally changed at some point.

I’ve been on 100mg of Zoloft for a few months now, and have been going to therapy for the past month. It’s been helping a ton, and I feel a lot better and more like the me who I know I should be. I also haven’t been drinking still-I kept to my word!

I’ve been working hard on my Echoing Footsteps novel, and am going to mess around with writing an Erotica Fiction series. I’ll keep you posted on those. 😉

Grooming is going fantastically, and soon I hope to move solely into the groom room and maybe even start grooming on my own every other weekend!! Very excited for that. I’ve been doing better with scissoring and have finished a few dogs all by myself.

I think that’s pretty much what I’ve been up to lately in a nutshell. I wanted to let you all know I haven’t forgotten about any of you, and I’m working hard on getting myself to a healthy mental and physical place, and hope to overcome my depression to be able to keep on enjoying being a part of your WordPress family. Please don’t take it personally if I don’t respond to a comment or post of yours in a timely fashion – I promise to try and get to it when I can. 🙂 I hope everyone is having a fantastic weekend!!

Here’s a song I recently stumbled upon and have been thoroughly enjoying. I hope you do as well.


 

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Hello, Everyone!

Hello, Everyone!

It’s been awhile since I’ve written a post, after saying that I was going to try to make more scheduled posts in 2016! Well I still will try, it just might be a little bit later than intended. I haven’t been very active on here, as you may have noticed (sorry!), but I definitely have not forgotten you wonderful people!!

I think a few factors have influenced my ghost-like appearance here on WordPress: I’ve been working a lot and then feeling lazy when I get home, I’ve been busy with Rocky and hanging out with Lucas, plus I just have been feeling kind of anxious when I think about getting on here. Not really sure why, there’s no reason for it and I really love blogging and reading all of your blogs! That’s probably the main reason though, and it really bothers me because I do love being on here, I just don’t quite know how to make myself come back to it!

I’m going to be making an appointment with the doctor to get another checkup on my Celexa and see if that needs changed at all, and then my arm keeps going numb which has been SUPER annoying and I’d like to figure out why, and my right nostril hurts! Haha, maybe too much info there, but I figured I’d fill you in. 😉 So hopefully in a little time I will be back full-force to read through your blogs and continue blogging myself, perhaps with a schedule in mind!

I have read your comments, and I really super appreciate them, thank you! I will be trying to get back to them all in the near future. For now, I hope everyone is having a great week and things are going well! Talk to you soon. 😀

Happy 2016!

Happy 2016!

I hope everyone had a wonderful and safe New Year’s Eve, and that 2016 has been a great year so far for you!! For me it’s been fantastic, and had some excitement in it already! Yesterday we went shopping and I got Rocky a new harness and collar, he’ll have to wait for the matching leash until next paycheck! Lucas and I both got a pair of jeans, he got a t-shirt, I got a coat, and I finally got the present for my sister from our sibling gift exchange. Quite a bit late on that, but better late than never, right?

So that was a lot of fun! Plus I have a three day weekend, after working eleven days, so I’ve been really enjoying this!! Last night when I went to walk Rocky we walked toward the back of the cabin and a coyote started howling and then I heard a bunch of them barking at the end of the lane. It was kind of spooky! I made Lucas come stand at the doorway in case they tried to eat us. 😉 They didn’t, just were making a bunch of noise. But that was plenty of excitement for me! haha.

We had a Twitch stream last night, and that was pretty fun! Lucas’s cousin is on a break from the Navy and will be getting here sometime tonight to stay a couple days I think, so he’s really looking forward to that. We need to clean up a little but will still probably stream tonight, we’re debating it!

Overall, 2016 is looking to be a great year. I don’t really make New Year’s resolutions, since I figure if you want to change something you ought to do it whenever you feel the change is needed, not just at the New Year. However, I have made a change that I’m going to try really hard to stick with, and I’ll be sharing that in probably my next post. For now, I will leave you with a video Lucas took of me singing to Shakira – Hips Don’t Lie that he conned me into doing and then put on YouTube. haha! I hope everyone’s having a great weekend!! 🙂

Life Update

Life Update

I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas, and if you don’t celebrate Christmas, I hope you still had an absolutely wonderful day!! I spent mine working in the morning and afternoon, watching Christmas Vacation, and just hanging out with all my boys! (Rocky, Nelson, Shikari, and Lucas 🙂 ) It was a pretty good Christmas I would say!

Tonight we’re going to have a special Christmas Lunar Tides stream on Twitch. We have lights set up and everything! I’ll have to post some pictures of it. 🙂

Rocky is doing wonderfully! Still no accidents in the house, and he’s getting along with Shikari really well. Nelson still doesn’t like him, of course, but he’ll at least walk around on the floor when Rocky’s out of his kennel. We think Rocky was probably abused at his last home, because he acts like he’s afraid sometimes or like he’s in trouble when he isn’t. It’ll probably take some time, but he’ll learn that we love him and he’s in a safe and good home now!

Other than that he’s a giant baby and does love being here. He’s always sitting on my lap and trying to lick me to death! 🙂 He’s adorable though, and I’m so happy we were able to rescue him and make him a part of our lives!

I’m working all this coming week as well, I don’t have a day off until next weekend, so I’m already and definitely will be exhausted by Saturday! I’m looking forward to being able to relax next weekend. I’ve been enjoying working though, it doesn’t even feel like work most of the time! It’ll be really nice once I’m solely in the groom room though.

We don’t have big plans for New Years, I think we’ll probably just end up staying home and watching movies, which sounds great to me!! What are your plans for bringing in the New Year? Anything big, or just a night at home like us?