Happy Halloween/All Hallows Eve!

It’s been a long while, friends! How are all of you doing? Enjoying the weather? It’s 80° here today! I remember when there was snow on the ground when I went trick-or-treating as a kid.

I’m going to ramble for awhile; hope you don’t mind. I now am on 200mg of Lamictal, and 50mg of Zoloft, and let me tell you: IT IS AMAZING. I think (knock on wood) this is the magic amount and type of drugs for me! I was telling Lucas the other day it’s probably how ‘normal’ people feel all the time, but for me I feel like I’m on drugs because I’m so happy and actually myself! It’s wonderful. (Granted yes, I am on drugs, but I mean like non-prescription drugs. You get it.)

I’m still at the vet clinic; it’s just me and The Groomer now, so I’ve been doing prep work, all the bathing, and then helping to finish whatever dogs are left. So a few less dogs that I’m finishing, but I’m still really enjoying it, learning new things, and getting more hours which is great!

Lucas and I are doing very well as are all the animals! Lunar Tides is going great and we’ve had a few live shows in our area!! That’s been a lot of fun; we have another on the 19th of November. In two months it’ll be a year that I’ve been sober. I’m pretty proud of myself for that. I’m sure a million other things have happened since I’ve been gone, and I know tons has been going on in your lives too! I’d love to hear all about it. I can’t promise I’m back for sure now, but I felt like doing a bit of blogging today and we’ll see where it leads us.

 

Have a fantastic week you wonderful WordPress friends. ❤

 

 

 

 

 

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Flying Solo

I have been taking different medications for depression and anxiety for just about a year now. I keep trying to find the medicine that will work for me, and some seem to but then lose their vigor. Two weeks ago I was put on Lexapro 10 mg. I was previously on Zoloft 200 mg, but had been feeling very foggy and tired all the time. I also was having some anger spurts which were not very fun!!

However, the Lexapro was TERRIBLE for me. I was irritated at everything, and would snap on Lucas just for looking at me! So I decided to quit taking the Lexapro because even if it began to be helpful, the irritation was not worth it. Now I’m just me in my head, and we’ll see how that goes. I have a psychiatrist appointment in about a month, and we’ll see where I’m at then. But for now, I figured it might be a good idea to try to get back to me and see how I’m doing. I’ve been on different meds for so long now, that I’m not even sure what feelings are mine and which are drug-induced!

It will be nice to see how I am on my own, but at the same time I don’t want to lose all the progress I’ve made when things have been going well. I’m still going to therapy, and actually have an appointment in an hour. So we’ll see how things go.

Other than that, life has been moving at high speed. Still grooming dogs, had a death in the family and the funeral last weekend, am sick now which sucks, and haven’t been on here or writing like I should! But I’m hoping to get back into things. Lucas and I are doing great, as are the animals which is good. I don’t know what I’d do without Lucas, and am so thankful he puts up with my moods and is so understanding to not hate me when I’m mean to him!! :/ Mental illness sucks.

I hope everyone is doing well though, take care!!  ❤

 

New Site, New Me.?

Well it’s been awhile, again! I feel like I keep saying that with each post. I also keep meaning to get back into blogging like I used to be, but somehow that hasn’t quite happened yet! I’m still here though, just lurking in the shadows at the moment.

To give a little update, I’ve been the sole groomer for about  a month at the vet clinic. The Groomer broke her hand so I’ve been doing it all until she’s better. I really love it, and have been doing a good job!

I saw a psychiatrist and now am on 150mg of Zoloft. It seems to be helping I think. I also am still going to therapy every week which has been very helpful and great!

I’ve kind of taken a pause from writing, I would like to get back into it though. Damn depression or whatever it is that keeps us from doing what we love!!

We’re still working on our EP, only vocals are left so it should be done fairly soon! We also have new songs in the works which is really exciting.

Anyway, I was just sitting here and thought I would spruce up my WordPress in hopes it would get me back in the swing of things. I changed the theme, although I’m not sure if I’ll keep it or not yet. Plus I changed my tagline to ‘under construction’ since I’m changing my blog around a little, and my life in general I suppose!

I hope everyone is doing well, I miss you guys and haven’t forgotten about you! I’ve just been busy and whatnot, but still think of you guys and hope everything is going really well. 🙂 Have a great weekend!

How Are You?

Hello my dear WordPress friends!! Man has it been a LOOONG time. How is everyone doing? What’s new in your life? How is 2016 treating you? I’ll give you a little update on me, since what else would I be doing on my blog? (ha!)

Our outside cat Calypso had kittens!! They’re adorable, Little Miss Jr. is a calico like her mom, Dark Tides is black and super calm, Tanner is orange and adventurous though not as much so as Dark Tides, and Whitey is white with silver tips and very whiny! They’re almost three weeks old, and doing really well. We’ll have to find them homes since we don’t have room to keep them all, but we’re definitely enjoying them while we can!

Lunar Tides is doing well; we’re working on a few new songs and have been working on our first EP! We’ve been doing it ourselves so it’s taking awhile and is a lot of work for Lucas, but he’s been doing great at it and hopefully by the end of May it’ll be finished!

Speaking of Lucas, I proposed to him!! And he said yes! We aren’t going to have a conventional wedding, just a promise and ceremony for us, but I’ll get my name legally changed at some point.

I’ve been on 100mg of Zoloft for a few months now, and have been going to therapy for the past month. It’s been helping a ton, and I feel a lot better and more like the me who I know I should be. I also haven’t been drinking still-I kept to my word!

I’ve been working hard on my Echoing Footsteps novel, and am going to mess around with writing an Erotica Fiction series. I’ll keep you posted on those. 😉

Grooming is going fantastically, and soon I hope to move solely into the groom room and maybe even start grooming on my own every other weekend!! Very excited for that. I’ve been doing better with scissoring and have finished a few dogs all by myself.

I think that’s pretty much what I’ve been up to lately in a nutshell. I wanted to let you all know I haven’t forgotten about any of you, and I’m working hard on getting myself to a healthy mental and physical place, and hope to overcome my depression to be able to keep on enjoying being a part of your WordPress family. Please don’t take it personally if I don’t respond to a comment or post of yours in a timely fashion – I promise to try and get to it when I can. 🙂 I hope everyone is having a fantastic weekend!!

Here’s a song I recently stumbled upon and have been thoroughly enjoying. I hope you do as well.


 

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Hello, Everyone!

It’s been awhile since I’ve written a post, after saying that I was going to try to make more scheduled posts in 2016! Well I still will try, it just might be a little bit later than intended. I haven’t been very active on here, as you may have noticed (sorry!), but I definitely have not forgotten you wonderful people!!

I think a few factors have influenced my ghost-like appearance here on WordPress: I’ve been working a lot and then feeling lazy when I get home, I’ve been busy with Rocky and hanging out with Lucas, plus I just have been feeling kind of anxious when I think about getting on here. Not really sure why, there’s no reason for it and I really love blogging and reading all of your blogs! That’s probably the main reason though, and it really bothers me because I do love being on here, I just don’t quite know how to make myself come back to it!

I’m going to be making an appointment with the doctor to get another checkup on my Celexa and see if that needs changed at all, and then my arm keeps going numb which has been SUPER annoying and I’d like to figure out why, and my right nostril hurts! Haha, maybe too much info there, but I figured I’d fill you in. 😉 So hopefully in a little time I will be back full-force to read through your blogs and continue blogging myself, perhaps with a schedule in mind!

I have read your comments, and I really super appreciate them, thank you! I will be trying to get back to them all in the near future. For now, I hope everyone is having a great week and things are going well! Talk to you soon. 😀

Happy 2016!

I hope everyone had a wonderful and safe New Year’s Eve, and that 2016 has been a great year so far for you!! For me it’s been fantastic, and had some excitement in it already! Yesterday we went shopping and I got Rocky a new harness and collar, he’ll have to wait for the matching leash until next paycheck! Lucas and I both got a pair of jeans, he got a t-shirt, I got a coat, and I finally got the present for my sister from our sibling gift exchange. Quite a bit late on that, but better late than never, right?

So that was a lot of fun! Plus I have a three day weekend, after working eleven days, so I’ve been really enjoying this!! Last night when I went to walk Rocky we walked toward the back of the cabin and a coyote started howling and then I heard a bunch of them barking at the end of the lane. It was kind of spooky! I made Lucas come stand at the doorway in case they tried to eat us. 😉 They didn’t, just were making a bunch of noise. But that was plenty of excitement for me! haha.

We had a Twitch stream last night, and that was pretty fun! Lucas’s cousin is on a break from the Navy and will be getting here sometime tonight to stay a couple days I think, so he’s really looking forward to that. We need to clean up a little but will still probably stream tonight, we’re debating it!

Overall, 2016 is looking to be a great year. I don’t really make New Year’s resolutions, since I figure if you want to change something you ought to do it whenever you feel the change is needed, not just at the New Year. However, I have made a change that I’m going to try really hard to stick with, and I’ll be sharing that in probably my next post. For now, I will leave you with a video Lucas took of me singing to Shakira – Hips Don’t Lie that he conned me into doing and then put on YouTube. haha! I hope everyone’s having a great weekend!! 🙂

Life Update

I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas, and if you don’t celebrate Christmas, I hope you still had an absolutely wonderful day!! I spent mine working in the morning and afternoon, watching Christmas Vacation, and just hanging out with all my boys! (Rocky, Nelson, Shikari, and Lucas 🙂 ) It was a pretty good Christmas I would say!

Tonight we’re going to have a special Christmas Lunar Tides stream on Twitch. We have lights set up and everything! I’ll have to post some pictures of it. 🙂

Rocky is doing wonderfully! Still no accidents in the house, and he’s getting along with Shikari really well. Nelson still doesn’t like him, of course, but he’ll at least walk around on the floor when Rocky’s out of his kennel. We think Rocky was probably abused at his last home, because he acts like he’s afraid sometimes or like he’s in trouble when he isn’t. It’ll probably take some time, but he’ll learn that we love him and he’s in a safe and good home now!

Other than that he’s a giant baby and does love being here. He’s always sitting on my lap and trying to lick me to death! 🙂 He’s adorable though, and I’m so happy we were able to rescue him and make him a part of our lives!

I’m working all this coming week as well, I don’t have a day off until next weekend, so I’m already and definitely will be exhausted by Saturday! I’m looking forward to being able to relax next weekend. I’ve been enjoying working though, it doesn’t even feel like work most of the time! It’ll be really nice once I’m solely in the groom room though.

We don’t have big plans for New Years, I think we’ll probably just end up staying home and watching movies, which sounds great to me!! What are your plans for bringing in the New Year? Anything big, or just a night at home like us?