It’s been about a week since changing the dosage of Celexa from 10mg to 20mg. Tonight I’m actually going to push the time I take it back a bit. When I was on the 10mg I didn’t really get that drowsy. I think I would a little bit, but I would drink a cup of coffee and be just fine. I was noticing this week it seemed like I was pretty tired, and I think it’s because the higher dosage has a bigger impact on that side effect, and just coffee wasn’t cutting it!
Tonight (and hereafter) I’m going to take it at 10 PM instead of 8 PM. I don’t want to take it too much later than that, even though I stay up quite a bit later than that, because on the weekends I work, or if I get scheduled for a morning shift, I’ll have to go to sleep at 10 and don’t want to have to take my meds early or set an alarm to take them later. We’ll see how taking them at ten differs, or if it even does!
We upped the dosage because I was still having anxiety, and because my motivation and energy levels hadn’t really gone up. I think pushing the time back will help me better determine if my levels are going up again. So far I’m not really sure if they have been or not.
I’ve always been a little awkward in social settings. I’m a great listener, but for some reason I’m not very good at small talk. I don’t know what to do with my hands, or I second guess myself in saying something, and end up with a goofy look on my face saying nothing at all and just make the whole thing more awkward than it already is! Putting anxiety into the mix only makes things worse. Then not only am I acting totally weird and awkward, I’m also petrified to be there in the first place!
I realized the other day that even if the Celexa helps my anxiety, it isn’t going to help my awkwardness. Which is kind of upsetting. I think I was subconsciously thinking the anxiety and awkwardness went hand-in-hand, but really I’m just awkward. I’m hoping the anxiety goes away, and it seems like it maybe has eased up a bit. However, I’m just as awkward as ever. So now I’m thinking maybe I should get a “How to Not Be Socially Awkward for Dummies” book. Do they even have one like that? Those are my thoughts for today, does anyone else suffer from social awkwardness or have any suggestions/tips or self-help books for me? I’m open to anything! 🙂 I hope everyone’s week is off to a great start.